Sleep Hallucination 3.1.22 im shaking and pointing at a random object in my room. im explaining what i have to do and why its so terrifying. i dont want do that, and im really scared because what if i get hurt. im then told to go back to bed

Dream Realm 2.6.22 a door opens and i come out, about 6 years old. im jumping around the driveway of a very southern-rich looking house. the car im running around is a really nice looking black minivan, i guess for a whole family. come to think of it, everything is really nice looking. the paint on the white house is so bright, and driveway is so smooth, and the grass is perfectly green. as im watching this, i start to feel a bit sick. my younger self keeps looking under the car, under which a perfect little golden retreiver puppy jumps out from. i look delighted. the puppy starts running down a very, very long driveway. you can see the panic on my face as it runs towards the road. a car slowly pulls into the end of the driveway, and a man in a suit gets out of it. he grabs the puppy and walks up the driveway to meet me, saying that we better get inside for dinner. i guess this man is my dad. he hands me the puppy, and we walk inside. tragedy averted i guess.. im left looking at the outside if this house. i dont know where i am, and im not even a dog person. i want to throw up

Dream Realm 2.5.22 im walking around a combo of my old middle school and high school, and im in the 13th grade (????). i remember graduating but i dont know why im back. i walk into the band room and its really dark, and the front isnt made out of brick but some kind of tarp. theres no door anymore. i try to sit down and put togther my clarinet but i get yelled out to get out. am i too old? am i supposed to be here? im really confused and walk out. someone outside tried to tell me to stop skipping class, and i get angry. "why the fuck am i here? i already graduated. im not supposed to be here.", i say. im in an office now sitting at a desk, and some lady is talking to me. i assume shes the principal. she has this massive folder in front of me on the desk, and shes telling me about everything that ive done wrong. everything in my entire life, outside of school. its all fake, but at the time i cant tell the difference. i say "fuck you! just let me leave. im an adult, ive done this all before, i dont understand", but she starts scolding me for swearing on campus, saying im a horrible person. i try to argue with her again and tell her that she cant tell me what to do, but she starts pointing at the papers again. im so frustrated i start crying. she goes through everything ive ever done, explaining why i dont deserve to be forgiven. she then hands the list to me and tells me to go though it. its things like theft and murder, things ive never done but it feels so real. my frustration becomes depair, and i am wailing. i cant even talk at this point, and she keeps yelling at me to read out loud.

Dream Realm 2.2.22 me and my roommate are in a mall. its massive, and the floor im in is split level. i walk up the steps and start getting nervous. im wearing a black dress with a black veil over my face, and im scared im going to get weird looks. i try to fake confidence and be as nice as possible to everyone i talk to. ive noticed if you are nice people wont make fun of what you are wearing. we head towards the stairs, and i notice people in far crazier outfits than me. they look really cool, and make me look a lot more tame. there must be some sort of gothic lolita event, because the mall is suddenly filled with dark clothing. i walk into a store and feel a lot better. im alone now. i think i ended up in the bottom level, and theres a lot less people. anyone i pass by gives me a glare. i find myself walking into a large room, where the floor has steps into the middle and then more steps leading to different stores. the floors are red brick, and the walls are dark grey. i walk into a store and see an old man sitting on the ground, he tells me that a bunch of kids stole all of the things he owned, including something really important to him. i tell him ill get it back. i walk into the store the left of the door, and everything is beige. theres not much in it besides stuff tossed on the ground, but i get uneasy and back out. i need more info, so i go back to the old man and hes gone. theres a door open to the room behind where he is sitting. i walk into it and everything is dark before my eyes focus. as my eyes adjust to the light coming from the window, i notice the ground is red and wet. theres a chest laying open with a sort of meat fat leaking out of the sides.

Dream Realm 12.???.21 (remembered a dream) im going to school. the bus comes to pick me up, and the world is green and nature filled, the roads are made of dirt. i start to notice that the bus is picking up speed, and recall someone talking about how dangerous the bus route is. there are no lights on, only the morning light coming from the windows. everyone is being jerked side to side, and i start feeling sick. i look at the bored man at the wheel and try to focus on the roads ahead of me. i notice we are going up and i cant see over the hill.. theres a river down there i know, so if we dont stop we are going to drive into it. we get to the top and he makes a 90 degree turn to the right, everyone's bodies hit the side of the bus. the school is right in front of me, thank god. i have to tell someone about the bus route, about how theres other roads that go through the woods instead. i get to the front of the school and the building is made out of blocks, each containing a room, dark and moving. it goes so so high into the sky, long vines are holding the blocks together so that they dont completely seperate. i get inside and see stairs to either side of me, heading to the next floor. i look at my schedule to find my room number, and start my jounrey through the school. the floors are made of wood, and the walls are dark granite. i pass by a performance hall and the hallway starts twisting downwards.. its turned into more of a tunnel, going up and down at a slope, the doorways are crooked. its so foggy down here, things are fading away, the air is like tv static. i feel like i wasnt supposed to go this way... im upstairs now, high up in the sky. i look out of the window and see that im a good 7 or 8 floors up, and watch as the vines wrapping around the building are pulled taut and loosened again. i spot an elevator and go up. the elevator is rickity, and floating around like the rest of the building. the floor starts tilting on direction and it stops, letting another person on. they look at me weird, and i start to feel like im not supposed to be here.. maybe im in the wrong building entirely. i try to ask them if they know where i should go and they make a noise and ignore me. the floor is breaking up, and i feel like its about to cave in. i try not to panic because they seem fine. like this is normal.. but i freak out and get off on the next floor. i start walking down a hallway and a teacher calls me over to check my schedule, and points me towards the door across from her. finally..

Dream Realm 1.29.22 me and my family (?) are at the base of a mountain. the sky is so grey that its almost black, and we are surrounded by pine trees. there is a log on the ground with holes cut out of it so that you can sit in it. its attached to a rail system that goes up the mountain like a rollercoaster. i dont want to get into it but everytime i say that and try to leave its like when you cant go back to the prevous area in a video game. i eventually get in with my family and it starts going up, i say "im always so scared to do this. i hate it" and shut my eyes tight as it goes up almost completely vertically. we get to the top and im seemingly younger. the top of the mountain is flat with a log fence around a giant building, and there are other people there, pointing and getting excited because the building is apparently an amusement park. we walk over to the fence and the sky is still a dark grey. my dad (?) tells me and my siblings to stand in front of the welcome sign for a photo and i notice that my youngest brother is holding a baby. i guess its part of my family as well. i also notice that the fence acts as some sort of barrier, because its snowing only in the fence. im in the amusement park, but its more on big room with a few slides. its about 4 stories tall and the walls are painted an ugly yellow color. im following my brother around and we are trying to find games to play, so we go into this smaller section of the building thats kind of like an arcade. my brother says he is going upstairs, but i stay downstairs because i found a tetris machine. the floors are made of that plastic covered foam stuff you see in a kids play area, and the paint is chipping off of the walls. i try to sit in the arcade stool but its broken. i look out of a window and notice it is snowing much harder than before, and my dad tells me to go get my brother because we need to leave. there is a lightning strike and the power goes out, and i start panicking suddenly the lights are back on and my brother is not upstairs. i walk out into the main room and start climbing a slide, its yellow and bendy and goes all the way up to the ceiling. i think ill have an easier time looking from here. i see some monkey bars and start slowly sliding to the left to get a better look. i cant see whos on them, so i climb over the edge the slide and dangle from it with my hands on the side. i cant pull my arms back up. if i let go im going to hit the ground from 4 stories up..

Dream Realm 1.28.22 car ptsd related dream? im riding in a small truck at night with two people i dont know. its dark and we are in a field. i cant tell if im in the truck bed or the back seat. the man driving says "i installed pvc pipes on the back of the truck to literally save my ass". i am confused but he says we are about to ramp and i say "ramp? over what? whats happening?", and then the truck launches into the air over a giant ditch. we land and start serving and i am screaming and holding my body. finally we stop and i get out and say i dont want to be here. i look around and we are at a campsite with a cabin. i see what the man said about the pipes on his truck "saving his ass", because they softened the shock to the back when we landed. the ditch is behind the cabin and it seems never ending, more like a crack in the earth. im standing around a bonfire and say im going home and jumping over the ditch. people are trying to get me to stay but i start walking toward the cabin to pass it. i see a bear and start running into the cabin after i point at it, not being able to speak. the man trying to stop be from leaving gets mauled to death and the bear breaks down the screen door of the cabin

Dream Realm 1.25.22 my roommate is in a fancy modern house with high ceilings with me. we are sitting across from some lady that is supposed to be my therapist but i cant really see her face. i dont remember ever having group therapy, and i dont know why im in her house. we are talking but im suddenly behind a counter on the ground. theres tons of cooking tools on the ground and im moving them around and trying to organize them. some guy walks in and says hes my therapists husband. im standing in front of a whiteboard on an easel and writing/drawing something on it and he gets behind it to get my attention. he offers to take us out to eat, and i get really nervous. i try to explain that im a selective eater because of my ARFID. he starts telling me that i sound stupid and i should just take free food. my therapist knows about my problems but she is also upset. i dont understand

Dream Realm 1.24.22 *first dream ive been able to remember this year, although vague* im standing on the stairs leading to the lower portion of my grandparents house. i guess im a child again. this is a dream version of their house that ive been in before, everything is much bigger than usual. my youngest brother starts accusing me of trying to eat one of our past dogs. i get really upset because thats how anyone would react. i try to tell an adult about it and they tell me that i was being accusing of eating a hot dog. my brother says he actually meant i had tried to eat our dog so i get frustrated and walk out the back door. suddenly im older looking around outside. where the yard ends has been surrounded by a giant cliff wall. its made of a yellowy-sandy rock and is almost completely flat like its been carved out. theres a small waterfall running down it. i start to notice theres hundreds of dates painted all over the wall ranging from the late 1800s until now. i get a very uneasy feeling like i wasnt supposed to see this, combined with the feeling of having a memory be tarnished.

Dream Realm 12.9.21 i am on top of a pile of junk in a prison yard. i am holding a shop vac and vacuuming up random things. "we should get the glass ones", says a girl with blonde hair, wearing the same uniform i am. she is referring to these 2inch wide clear spheres on the ground. some of them are soft like orbees and some are hard like glass. "but wont that kill them?", i say. "we should get the glass ones.", she says again, eyes wide and face vacant. i comply, and vacuum up the glass orbs. now i am walking into a big room, about 40 feet wide and 20 long. the double door i come in through leaves me in the front right corner. in front of me are display cases against the right wall, and they have information on the room and examples of what i can find in it. the clear spheres are in the case, so i turn left and look at the rest of the room. I am still holding the vacuum and being followed by this girl. in the room, there are these tables youd expect museum speciman displayed on - they are about waist high, covered in green pool table material, and have a raised edge around them. theres about 20 of them, all covered in junk. i slowly make my way through the tables collecting more orbs. eventually i cant find anymore so i approach a woman in a hat and professional uniform. i assume she is a guard of some sort. i ask her where the more of the orbs are because they are on my collection sheet, and leads me to a table with tons. eventually, i have gathered all i can and i make my way to the back left corner. there is a computer, specifically an old ibm from around the 80s on a table there. there are more people with me, presumably because i am rebelling against the leaders somehow. people are excited about whatever we are doing. poisoning them? shooting them with the orbs? im not really sure. some guy is looking at the computer and starts freaking out. he is trying to explain something to me when a guard brings me a piece of paper. the paper states that my team has reported we collected 35 of these things when we actually collected around 175. i start getting nervous and i see tons of messages coming through the computer about how i would be put on trial. a girl with red hair is laughing at me, saying this wouldve never worked. i try to calm myself down and start vacuuming up paper items on the table next to me, thinking i could balance this all out. for some reason, all of the papers i am seeing are charges against me and sums of money i have to pay. i vacuum up a small paper and suddenly the red headed girl appears in front of me and says "hey! you just ripped out a page in my bible!". I looked at the end of the tube and i did for some reason have it on a small pocket bible she was holding and reading over the table. over the intercom, a message is broadcasted. it says that a family member has been shot by a sniper and is being taken to this wing for medical attention. i assume this happened because of my stupid plan and that the higher ups were getting back at me.

Dream Realm 11.28.21 sephiroth is in my dream except he is called thephiroth on all the twitter posts i read for some reason

Dream Realm 11.26.21 theres a tornado forming on the news. im in some sort of modern apartment and im told to gather my things and run by a bunch of people sitting in the dark. i grab a cart thing and start thinking about what i should bring. i put my cat in her carrier and put it on the bottom level of the cart. her food and my medicine goes on the second level. theres still room on the top, i take my art supplies in case i get bored. i go outside and now im at the front of a private school, judging by the students in uniform. there is a big river with massive rocks around it, and the sky is dark gray. im supposed to cross the river to get to shelter. i slowly make my way over, being yelled at by people. once i get there, some lady said "oh i heard you had the baby!!" the baby? what? and then someone else says "yes they had it a month ago". i guess im supposed to have a child. i shift around and someone asks me where it is, asking if i left it. I say "i guess so... oops.."

Dream Realm 11.25.21 Theres a round yellow object, the size of an orange. this lady keeps telling me to make it shiny again. i see that gold dust has fallen off of one side of it. i keep turning it hoping it will be shiny again and she will stop talking.

Dream Realm 11.23.21 My landlord came over to fix the vent in my bathroom. I told him that I had class and really needed to shower and he sighed and let me. Suddenly I'm in the bathroom downstairs and it has a bathtub now. I get into the bath. I hear people talking, a woman and child I don't know. The child enters the bathroom and I sink down into the bubbles. The woman grabs the girl and tells her not to just barge in like that, and is surprised I'm in here. My landlord says that he's invited his wife and child over while he fixes the vent. Suddenly I'm surrounded by 2 different people, and man and a woman. The man opens some blinds that surround the bathtub now and I can see through the wall into my neighbors house. I say "hey, why did you do that? I'm trying to take a bath" and he says that if he were me it wouldn't bother him. The woman agrees and laughs at me. The bathroom returns back to normal and everyone leaves. I'm looking at my hair and see something in it. I start brushing it and giant 2-3 inch pieces of dead skin keep falling off. I look at them and see bugs. I realize that I have lice or something, and start worrying about how I have to see my family tomorrow for thanksgiving.

Dream Realm 11.12.21 I am in some sort of giant thrift store, and am looking at dolls so I can customize them. Some girl nearby dies and I get blamed for it.

Dream Realm 11.10.21 I am a woman with a husband, and we own an aquarium store. We have this moss ball that is seemingly sentient and follows my husbands finger on the glass. It is also apparently a god reincarnate. We are at an aquatic convention, and it's in a theater. We seem to be the only ones participating and the only ones in the entire building. My husband is in the box office, and our tank it up on the stage. Suddenly there's a blonde woman in a pink suit that wants to steal our moss ball. I think she set up the whole convention to steal it. We look at our tank and the woman has put mini sharks in the water that are looking for the ball. I am running back and forth from the tank "checking" things and trying to scoop out the god ball. I keep failing and every time i get back to the box office it turns into something else. I finally get it but when I go back there my husband is dead on the ground. I take the moss ball and drop it in the extra tank and try to close the door. It suddenly swings the other way, breaking the hinges. A robot rips the door off and kills me. I am a completely different person and I am at an aquarium store with some guy who's my dad I think. I look in a giant tank and see a moss ball. On the glass it says the marimo moss balls are 76 cents each. I ask my dad if I can get one. We walk up to the counter and my dad asks the woman if we can have one of the moss balls. She quickly says no. Then she laughs and tries to come up with an excuse, saying that she's just too short and it's a hassle to stick her arms into the tank to get them. My dad looks at her and says "with all due respect, that's stupid". She then has a heart attack and is taken to the hospital. Its the future and the woman is leaving the hospital. She is being dropped off by a hospital car at her house, and I am waiting there. I am wearing Victorian mourning wear. I tell her that she's a bitch.

Dream Realm 11.9.21 I am in an old town by the water at night. My siblings are there and we are standing outside and prepping to move into a different building. I look over to the water and see something run by between the buildings really fast. I my siblings to stay in place and I go look. I am dipping my legs into the water as the sun is slightly rising. In the distance there is a barn in the water with a blinding red light coming from it. I'm told by a voice that I have to make it to the barn.

Dream Realm 11.8.21 tw trafficking mention I am either a woman or her child, I think I switch POV throughout. The woman is sad because she got to choose who her husband was but not anything else in her life, like if she wanted a child. - I am the woman's child at a fair and I am trying to play a carnival game. Everything is so comically large that it is almost impossible to play. - I am looking at a different kid from a top-down view, a blond one, opening his locker, he seems upset. - I am being told the reason for something bad happening and watching a woman be sold on the black market.

Dream Realm 11.4.21 I've just pulled up into the driveway of my dads house in some sort of truck (idk how to drive irl so idfk) and another more beat up dirt covered truck pulls up next to me. I start walking into the house bc hey that's not any of my business. I get pulled by the collar by someone and it's this generic school bully character. They look to be about 15 or so and are wearing a black vest with patches and the sleeves ripped off. Their hair is very reminiscent of a kid who's tried to give themselves a cool haircut but it ended up being a swooped bowl cut. They say "why'd you run away from me so fast?" And I'm just really confused. They hold me by the collar and are laughing as we go into my house. We go in and my brother looks in shock as if I messed up somehow. This house looks to be a combination of my dads current house and my childhood home, with the inside mostly being the latter. The random person let's go of me and starts talking to my brother, saying some mean things but I just go into my room. The room is decorated similarly to my childhood bedroom but it has the same weirdness that a different dream version of my childhood bedroom did. Idk, I just think I've been in it before in a different dream. There's not windows on the wall opposite to the door like there should be, but some sort of large vent hole that never ends. It's been decorated with a curtain to try and hide it. Im suddenly looking at a ceiling mounted crt TV that has appeared in the room, but I'm looking at from the view of a screen capture. the screen is mostly a bright shade of yellow. It's the weather, and cartoon man is enthusiastically explaining something to me.

Sleep Hallucination 10.31.21 I opened my eyes and saw my desk warp, i touched it and it turned back to normal. The pins on my backpack disappeared and reappeared multiple times. I saw a fish floating in the air by my bed and swatted at it, i then started looking for it because I felt really bad about hitting it.

Sleep Hallucination 10.30.21 I got up and made fearful noises as I looked at the massive brown recluse spider coming down from the ceiling onto my body. I went into the corner of my bed and tried to slide across the wall in the dark to turn my light on, crawling off of the bed as low as possible to do so. I stood up with the light on and woke up.

Dream Realm 10.29.21 I am at some sort of campus with my roommate. It feels like an amusement park similar to universal studios, specifically the harry potter section. There is a football game going on, and we are walking down a brick alleyway to a different section of the campus away from the game. This section was described as being the poor part of the campus, and we were heading towards it to get pastries from a new restaurant. On our way we see TVs in shop windows playing the game, and they are announcing an anime figure raffle thing. I somehow end up at the game (pure will I suppose) and I go into the "back room" to look at the figures. They are supposed to be attached to balloons like in animal crossing, and floated above the crowd for someone to get. I take two of them and leave. In my mind this is not seen as stealing or even remotely wrong, because I will give them back if I don't want them. We head back towards the new restaurant. There are multiple people (50 or so) on giant red shrimp heading to the restaurant as well. My roommate says something along the lines of "well of course this would happen, this is annoying", my brain processing it as implication that people riding shrimp is some sort of trend and that it's lame or tacky. It was also implied that they were overhyping the new restaurant for trend as well. I get to the weirdly empty restaurant and bring the figures behind the counter. I tell my roommate that if I don't like them I will bring them back to the game tomorrow, but they say that the game is happening right now and it's almost over. I open the figures. One is a miyuki from lucky star, the other is something i don't know. I see them and think "should I just buy these online?" Still not registering that I was going to steal them if not. I pull out my phone and look up the answer to my question somehow. A girl on the internet says "always acquire anime figures at sports games, never shop online."

Sleep Hallucination 10.28.21 I got up and made some sort of noise as I turned on my lamp, out of fear of the bugs on my bed. There were no bugs on my bed.

Dream Realm 10.28.21 I was in some sort of fake version of my mother's house. My entire family and everyone I knew were there for a party of some sort, which was very unrealistic as we never had guests when i lived there. I then took a shower in a bathroom completely different from her real one. It was pink square tiled and had a floor lamp in it instead of a mirror light, and the bathtub was along the left wall instead of the back. After I got out, all of my belongings had been put into the living room, and my father approached me. He encouraged me to "fight for my own custody", my siblings seemingly didn't exist and I was also currently an adult so this whole scenario didn't make sense. As I started arguing with with my mom, my boyfriends non-existent Russian grandfather said "well we all die someday" and then it started raining really hard. Someone told us to all hold one another's arms, kinda like when people grab each other's forearms during skydiving. I went over to my bfs fake Russian family and linked arms with him. As the tornado hit everyone started to rise into the air and we heard a deep rumble, then we fell back down. Someone said "well we can't stay here for another 10 minutes since it missed", I think implying that it would come back to get us. My boyfriend then said "all this and I still have my gun unloaded", which I think meant he wanted to shoot the tornado